Every Night & day

At night when I wake up surrounded by shadows
yes, shadows which follows me everywhere
at the corner we sat, oh the mirror which saw us
bed we shared, laughter that echo
I try to run away from all
only to reach still more near

I try to find you, search everywhere
stop playing this game - I think
I light a candle to make it easy
& there I can see you sleeping
right in the usual corner tugging sheet
there you are, I curse myself

I try to move you, soothe you
box you, kick you
yet, so stern
I called you out, plead you
still, no answer
Tired, I give up

I am too scared to sleep now
try to stay as close as possible
shadows are far behind, I wonder
I wait for light to come
for your opened eyes
& toxic smile

Light come, it takes over
I feel the burn
a pain, a sharp one
I melt, dripping onto you
Heat engulfs, take me with it
I battle, fight it alone, every night...every day